I am so stinking sleepy but that is nothing unusual, just wish I could feel rested for once. Supposedly that will never happen no matter how many meds I take or hours I sleep, I still can't except that! It is part of my stress I am sure, I wanna do so many things but the body just wont let me. I should be thankful for being able bodied, I am complaining, sorry!
Ok I am going to be positive. I am positive I have many loads of laundry that need done.
I am positive I want to cook some fun things today.
I am positive I want to do something nice for the community I live in, ya know put a smile on somebody's face in these uncertain times. How about bake a ton of cookies and just start passing them out randomly? I will have to see if I have enough ingredients on hand...this could be fun. Maybe my kids wouldn't be bored after school if I gave them a delivery map...hmmm...another project :)
Lately I have been having flashacks of me finding Mom, I sure wish they would go away. I said something last night and it sounded like her voice, tok my breath, very scary. Wonder why God wants me to hang on to this horibble day and experiene that I am afraid will never leave my mind? I just have to trust there is a reason. I pray one day it will get easier. Is that selfish??
I better get something done, going into the extra sad mode...
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